And I’m gonna sit down in front of my computer for the whole workday because nobody will be left at our department. I was exempted from the field work so I was a sort of a caretaker-customer-care-for-a-day. Good thing about working in this new company is that we don’t have a strict IT people so you can do almost anything you want and click anything you want…work with pleasure…I mean multitask.
I checked some blogs, blogs that are linked from a friends blog. Blogs that has been linked through a friend’s friend’s blog and there it goes. The very best thing to do when you’re bored is to read other people’s rants and ideas to reaffirm yourself that the world is still a happy place to live in. But another worry that concerns me now is “when am I gonna change.” But according to Ms. M, “walang timeline ang pagbabago” (her response to her previous 90-day project).
So it may take some time for me to become more responsible. When shall i realize what career to pursue in this world full of opportunities? (sabi kasi ng isang dating ka-course [nung BS Economics pa ako] ng makasakay ko sya sa MRT nung November ‘07 na“it takes seven jobs before we fully know what career we want to pursue.” I just can’t reconcile my passion, skills and whatever practical reasons that I should know or be reminded of.
Gayahin natin ang sinasabi/ginagawa ng narrator ng radio drama bago matapos ang show.
“Lilipat na naman ba ng trabaho si Lonely boy?”
“Saan naman kaya sya lilipat?”
“Kelan pa kaya sya magtatagal sa isang trabaho ”
So ayun na. Decode my message.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
post pose
and i thought this is the best form of release (aside from smoking) to beat the usual stressful field work. i miss school. i miss myself. i miss taking pictures. i miss sociologizing. i miss uplb but i love the old manila.
model and photographer: avery of jobhopper's/lonely circle
clothing: model's own
lens: samsung e250 vga camera
location: manila central post office building, lawton, manila
date: february 19, 2008 between 5:30-6:10 pm
model and photographer: avery of jobhopper's/lonely circle
clothing: model's own
lens: samsung e250 vga camera
location: manila central post office building, lawton, manila
date: february 19, 2008 between 5:30-6:10 pm
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
smoked
my temper took over me again...oops.
no work tomorrow 'coz its parañaque day and that means i won't be late for american idol.
and i'm in yufielvi on friday for the up fair...a time to meet some old college friends, orgmates and other alumni. i wanna scream my heart out!
...am i in a hurry?
no work tomorrow 'coz its parañaque day and that means i won't be late for american idol.
and i'm in yufielvi on friday for the up fair...a time to meet some old college friends, orgmates and other alumni. i wanna scream my heart out!
...am i in a hurry?
Sunday, February 3, 2008
bent
i'm not sure if sharing something that happened to me over the past 14 months would make people think that i'm stupid or something else. someone that's going nowhere and blah blah.
it's tiring to know that some people are always great to pull other people down...and pull down some vigor, trying to get you out from the utopia or the worst thing is to slap you with words that would make you even more confused until its drowns you into a high level of uncertainty.
i always gamble. in fact i am sometimes impulsive when it comes to decision making. i also expect a lot and it just makes me frustrated. i'm trying to correct a lot of things, making me as my self's greatest villain.
i definitely need to bring myself somewhere... soon.
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i had the result of my pre-employment medical exam last thursday and i was classified as an obese class A. i'm not an uberbigboy but i'm 22 pounds more than the should-be weight of a boy 5'7 in height. i'm sure this was the result of the holidays and my unrelenting desire to eat whatever i want. being stuck in a former workplace in which you can't find the best or a least a good person to talk to is also depressing. i preferred to eat rather than waste my energy to them for a conversation that is going nowhere.
i need to get some apples before i find myself in a 36+ inches pants.
it's tiring to know that some people are always great to pull other people down...and pull down some vigor, trying to get you out from the utopia or the worst thing is to slap you with words that would make you even more confused until its drowns you into a high level of uncertainty.
i always gamble. in fact i am sometimes impulsive when it comes to decision making. i also expect a lot and it just makes me frustrated. i'm trying to correct a lot of things, making me as my self's greatest villain.
i definitely need to bring myself somewhere... soon.
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i had the result of my pre-employment medical exam last thursday and i was classified as an obese class A. i'm not an uberbigboy but i'm 22 pounds more than the should-be weight of a boy 5'7 in height. i'm sure this was the result of the holidays and my unrelenting desire to eat whatever i want. being stuck in a former workplace in which you can't find the best or a least a good person to talk to is also depressing. i preferred to eat rather than waste my energy to them for a conversation that is going nowhere.
i need to get some apples before i find myself in a 36+ inches pants.
Monday, January 21, 2008
this + sign means everything
some things that happened today...
1. i was able to come to work today 37 minutes earlier than the usual on time attendance. 7:53: i set my new punctuality record.
2. i've found out that my hsbc credit card application was declined and i was advised that i can re-apply after 6 months. poor boy...i've already listed all the things that i can swipepurchase once that card is granted.
3. i officially made an announcement to most of my officemates that i'll be leaving on january31 for a better opportunity. there's a feeling of sadness that i won't be seeing my office friends on a 5-day-in-a-week basis but i'll be just transferring to a company that is two pedestrian lanes away from the current. i can still see them after office hours.
4. on my way home, my former teammate and i (from caall center) happened to be in the same bus. i didn't see her for over 6 months now and it's just a great feeling to see a person again who've been so nice and thoughtful to me when we were still working together.
5. and i was overwhelmed with the great things that happened in the last 6 days. whether it may be good or bad but i still learned to appreciate everything. i took some risk and it became a way for me to know what i really feel and how am i going to let it pass. it sounds weird, awkward and crazy and i don't know. i know things happen for a reason...good or bad but things always happen with a purpose.
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1. i was able to come to work today 37 minutes earlier than the usual on time attendance. 7:53: i set my new punctuality record.
2. i've found out that my hsbc credit card application was declined and i was advised that i can re-apply after 6 months. poor boy...i've already listed all the things that i can swipepurchase once that card is granted.
3. i officially made an announcement to most of my officemates that i'll be leaving on january31 for a better opportunity. there's a feeling of sadness that i won't be seeing my office friends on a 5-day-in-a-week basis but i'll be just transferring to a company that is two pedestrian lanes away from the current. i can still see them after office hours.
4. on my way home, my former teammate and i (from caall center) happened to be in the same bus. i didn't see her for over 6 months now and it's just a great feeling to see a person again who've been so nice and thoughtful to me when we were still working together.
5. and i was overwhelmed with the great things that happened in the last 6 days. whether it may be good or bad but i still learned to appreciate everything. i took some risk and it became a way for me to know what i really feel and how am i going to let it pass. it sounds weird, awkward and crazy and i don't know. i know things happen for a reason...good or bad but things always happen with a purpose.
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Wednesday, January 16, 2008
stationary
pagkatapos ng dalawang araw na hindi pagpasok dahil nagkasakit ako, ngayon ko lang napahalagahan ang kinikita kong pera. naubos agad ang sinuweldo ko dahil sa ospital, check-up, gamot atbp.
salamat na din sa mga kaganapang ito dahi natapos na ang "emotional turmoil" na nararanasan ko - sa mas mababaw na salita...depresyon.
salamat kay paolo coelho na pakalat-kalat sa bahay. napagkamalan ko pa tuloy na self-help ang libro nya. ang labo, e di naman self-help yun.
bukas papasok na ako. at least medyo mas positibo na ako sa buhay ngayon. medyo hindi maganda ang pasok ng taon sa akin pero hindi naman siguro ito nangagahulugang pangit na ang buong taon para sa akin. ibabaon ko na ang nga hindi magandang nangyari sa mga nakaraang araw mamaya bago ako matulog. ang umasa ay hindi kapareho ng may pag-asa. pero may pag-asa.
eto na ang opisyal na pagbati ko sa inyo ng Happy New Year!
--sa lahat ng mga kaibigan kong nagtatrabaho, sana maging mas maganda ang taon na ito para sa trabaho nyo.
--sa ibang kaibigan ko na nawalan ng trabaho, naghahanap o nag-iisip pa lang ng gustong maging trabaho, makakahanap kayo ng para sa inyo.
--sa mga nawawalan ng pag-asa sa buhay, nalulungkot dahil parang walang pinatutunguhan ang ginagawa, konting pasensya lang at positibong pagharap sa buhay...isang araw ngingiti ka na lang at sasabihin mong masarap palang anihin ang pinaghirapan.
salamat sa lahat.
Happy New Year, medyo late nga lang na pagbati pero ngayon ko pa lang kasi sisimulan ang taon na kasama ang positibong disposiyon sa buhay.
salamat na din sa mga kaganapang ito dahi natapos na ang "emotional turmoil" na nararanasan ko - sa mas mababaw na salita...depresyon.
salamat kay paolo coelho na pakalat-kalat sa bahay. napagkamalan ko pa tuloy na self-help ang libro nya. ang labo, e di naman self-help yun.
bukas papasok na ako. at least medyo mas positibo na ako sa buhay ngayon. medyo hindi maganda ang pasok ng taon sa akin pero hindi naman siguro ito nangagahulugang pangit na ang buong taon para sa akin. ibabaon ko na ang nga hindi magandang nangyari sa mga nakaraang araw mamaya bago ako matulog. ang umasa ay hindi kapareho ng may pag-asa. pero may pag-asa.
eto na ang opisyal na pagbati ko sa inyo ng Happy New Year!
--sa lahat ng mga kaibigan kong nagtatrabaho, sana maging mas maganda ang taon na ito para sa trabaho nyo.
--sa ibang kaibigan ko na nawalan ng trabaho, naghahanap o nag-iisip pa lang ng gustong maging trabaho, makakahanap kayo ng para sa inyo.
--sa mga nawawalan ng pag-asa sa buhay, nalulungkot dahil parang walang pinatutunguhan ang ginagawa, konting pasensya lang at positibong pagharap sa buhay...isang araw ngingiti ka na lang at sasabihin mong masarap palang anihin ang pinaghirapan.
salamat sa lahat.
Happy New Year, medyo late nga lang na pagbati pero ngayon ko pa lang kasi sisimulan ang taon na kasama ang positibong disposiyon sa buhay.
Monday, January 7, 2008
if you thought you're great...think again
my problem is not just about being awkward but about looking at the bigger scope of whatever plans i am doing right now. it's not about loving pessimism or welcoming frustrations but trying to shape the future ahead of me...and we can't trust all the people around us. welcome 2008...can you love me?
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