bday blogging

state of happiness means lack of words to say. i may be tired from the 12-hour travel yesterday. i wish myself a happy birthday and thanks to all the friends who've extended their greetings through text and phone calls. i don't know know what to write now.

22 winks

'coz I can’t be that transparent now that’s why. It may be liberating for you and I’m fine with it. I wish I could recover from these lungkot days. I’ll be home (the real home in cagayan) on Thursday to Sunday for a meeting. And the rest of the story will follow. Apparently, my birthday month became a travel month. From Mindoro to Manila to Baguio to Manila to Tuguegarao and back to Manila on the 31st.

halt

march has officially started last weekend. this is my birthday month and i'll be turning 22 twenty four days when we count from this day.

i was on a short rest since monday and work will resume next week. it's been 6th months since the last time last time i was on vacation. i'm going to have a new career (in a new industry) on the 10th. this is supposed to be a better opportunity as i'm gonna feel the convenience of working just around 3 streets away from home and it will take me only about 5 minute-walk to go there. waking up at 7:30 in the morning won't be a problem now. i'm also going to miss riding in a public transpo as my feet means transportation this time. how i missed working in makati and i'm back!

i guess hopping stops for a year or two. i'll do whatever i can 'cause i dont wanna be a record holder.

bumbleboy

And I’m gonna sit down in front of my computer for the whole workday because nobody will be left at our department. I was exempted from the field work so I was a sort of a caretaker-customer-care-for-a-day. Good thing about working in this new company is that we don’t have a strict IT people so you can do almost anything you want and click anything you want…work with pleasure…I mean multitask.

I checked some blogs, blogs that are linked from a friends blog. Blogs that has been linked through a friend’s friend’s blog and there it goes. The very best thing to do when you’re bored is to read other people’s rants and ideas to reaffirm yourself that the world is still a happy place to live in. But another worry that concerns me now is “when am I gonna change.” But according to Ms. M, “walang timeline ang pagbabago” (her response to her previous 90-day project).

So it may take some time for me to become more responsible. When shall i realize what career to pursue in this world full of opportunities? (sabi kasi ng isang dating ka-course [nung BS Economics pa ako] ng makasakay ko sya sa MRT nung November ‘07 na“it takes seven jobs before we fully know what career we want to pursue.” I just can’t reconcile my passion, skills and whatever practical reasons that I should know or be reminded of.

Gayahin natin ang sinasabi/ginagawa ng narrator ng radio drama bago matapos ang show.

“Lilipat na naman ba ng trabaho si Lonely boy?”

“Saan naman kaya sya lilipat?”

“Kelan pa kaya sya magtatagal sa isang trabaho ”

So ayun na. Decode my message.

post pose

and i thought this is the best form of release (aside from smoking) to beat the usual stressful field work. i miss school. i miss myself. i miss taking pictures. i miss sociologizing. i miss uplb but i love the old manila.





























































































model and photographer: avery of jobhopper's/lonely circle
clothing: model's own
lens: samsung e250 vga camera
location: manila central post office building, lawton, manila
date: february 19, 2008 between 5:30-6:10 pm

smoked

my temper took over me again...oops.

no work tomorrow 'coz its parañaque day and that means i won't be late for american idol.

and i'm in yufielvi on friday for the up fair...a time to meet some old college friends, orgmates and other alumni. i wanna scream my heart out!

...am i in a hurry?

bent

i'm not sure if sharing something that happened to me over the past 14 months would make people think that i'm stupid or something else. someone that's going nowhere and blah blah.

it's tiring to know that some people are always great to pull other people down...and pull down some vigor, trying to get you out from the utopia or the worst thing is to slap you with words that would make you even more confused until its drowns you into a high level of uncertainty.

i always gamble. in fact i am sometimes impulsive when it comes to decision making. i also expect a lot and it just makes me frustrated. i'm trying to correct a lot of things, making me as my self's greatest villain.

i definitely need to bring myself somewhere... soon.

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i had the result of my pre-employment medical exam last thursday and i was classified as an obese class A. i'm not an uberbigboy but i'm 22 pounds more than the should-be weight of a boy 5'7 in height. i'm sure this was the result of the holidays and my unrelenting desire to eat whatever i want. being stuck in a former workplace in which you can't find the best or a least a good person to talk to is also depressing. i preferred to eat rather than waste my energy to them for a conversation that is going nowhere.

i need to get some apples before i find myself in a 36+ inches pants.