on a birthday post

today's my 23rd bday.

nothing's so special except that i'm just one year older. good thing that almost everybody whom i'm expecting to greet me have sent their wish of a happy birthday either thru sms, facebook, multiply and friendster - except for this one person. (or you may have forgotten your promise...now i'm having second thoughts on greeting you on your birthday next week)

btw, i'm still waiting for a call from an employer. i guess this one's a perfect birthday present. to the employer: please read the application form that i filled out so that you can arrive at the best idea on what's on my birthday wishlist. :)

today, i have to stay at home and finish my school requirements. birthday is such a great excuse to be away from work for at least one day. then i'm off to a dinner tonight.

happy birthday to me. thanks to everyone. :)

decode

february had been sort of adjustment on my end. it became a month of trying to stretch almost everything and it also tried to check my flexibility. i've never thought that even a good 8 months of good and hardwork is gonna be overlooked or not even noticed at all. i kept questioning if meritocracy still exist that even the lousiest persons are still offered promotion or even a chance to move up in an organization. and the answer is probably.

i don't know if graduate school has been helping me to get what i want. but wednesday and thursday nights have been very good companions as they gave me an escape to the reality in which i'm trying to disintegrate myself. i have this newly opened consciousness on dealing with trivial things and it sucks big time. at some point, the experiences i have been through in the past seven years of independence is something that i wish should have not rapidly took place. i'm going back to being idealistic. err. nevermind.